Is My Life Going to Get Better? Why Do I Feel Cursed?

Curious. Have you ever wondered why Jesus cursed the fig tree? In case you’re unfamiliar, you can find this story in the gospel of Mark, chapter 11. Jesus is hungry and sees this fig tree from afar and from the distance it was full of leaves and appeared fruitful. He goes to the tree to see if He can find figs but there were only leaves because it was too early in the season for fruit.

Hmmm. And I pause to reflect because Jesus said to the tree, “May no one ever eat your fruit again!” In essence, Jesus cursed the tree! Why on earth would Jesus curse a tree that was out of season?! Why would He expect fruit when it was not yet time?! This was one of those bible passages I passed over time and time again not truly grasping it’s spiritual significance until recently.

I reflected upon a dark time in my life back in 2013. At the time, I was in the process of a divorce. My then husband of 6 years confessed he didn’t love me and was in love with a guy who he believed to be his soulmate. You can’t even begin to imagine the hopelessness and despair I felt. And to make matters worst, I had fulfilled graduate degree requirements yet couldn’t find a job. I know others have experienced far worse but I just felt I couldn’t sink any lower.

Around this time, God’s presence filled my room and He spoke these words within my spirit, “This is your season for double fruitfulness.” I was surprised, “Did I just hear Him correctly?!” I murmured within my spirit, “Lord, I’m really out of it! Maybe next year but this definitely isn’t my season!”

If we look at this parable within the context of spirituality-many of us have the outward leaves of a God-given religion (we attend church, speak in tongues and pray), but there’s no spiritual fruit in our lives. We allow our circumstances to cause us to lose sight of Jesus and His promises. We’ve been given spiritual strategies to overcome yet we remain stagnated year after year. Jesus desires we yield fruit to our account. Instead, He finds us barren. Is He not God? Can He not speak to your circumstance and cause you to be fruitful and abound? If we abide in Jesus we can produce fruit no matter the season of our lives.